favorite tweets

tonight i'm just sitting on my sofa and online. i opened my twitter and i started to favorited or retweeted someone tweets.

"The prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets. The prettiest eyes have cried the most tears. And the kindest hearts have felt the most pain"- @damnistrue. is that the things i always do now? pretending like there's nothing happen here. pretending that i'm fine. i don't know what to do. i don't know what to act. i don't know what to say. i'm just sitting here. i'm just standing here and looking from this distance. i want do something to make it better, but when i try to make it better it getting worst. i'm starting to give up. but when i try to give everything up it seems like someone, somebody or something hit my head and say "you do this far. don't give up" so i keep on walking, i keep on running.

"I miss the way you used to hug me, I miss the way you used to kiss my lips, but most of all I miss the way you held me and my heart." - @damnistrue. that's true. i'm so missing you. but i know you won't miss me like before. you won't love me like before. everything has change. there's no more left. i messed everything up. i can't be perfect because every time i try to make it better the things is getting worse. am i stupid? am i pathetic? no one can answer it. no one. i'm not that perfect but i always try to make my self perfect. please look at me.

"Aku kehilangan seseorang karena dia tidak mencintaiku. Aku melihatnya setiap hari,tapi dia tidak bisa mencintaiku"-Ai. is that true? i keep asking this question. this stupid question. i keep looking for the answer until now. i keep doing something that it won't show the answer. i'm in pain. but i covered it with smile and laugh. i cover it with my happiness. i don't mind. really.

if i'm sick like now, will you care about me? if i cry a river, will you wipe my tears off, hug me and tell me that everything gonna be okay soon and you won't go anywhere? if i'm gone someday, will you looking for me until you find me and tell me that you're so afraid of losing me and you hug me like you won't see me again?